you mean to say, what I am actually thinking but could not put the words in my mouth to... say, being so... remote is do you want me to stave off the...

This whole entry is dedicated to you, sick princess. Im not going to lie about it but I just want to say, I'm going to try this whole stabbing people behind the back thing because goddamit, I would be some kind of savage if I did it to their faces! Actually if you are cool with it, it wouldn't bother me but goddamit it does for unknown reasons that evoke a feeling of wonder and apparently, misery, in me.

I know I "should" feel more but this is all I can be certain is real, is that you evoke that feeling. But... you can't understand how it is to feel as though you should feel someway, know that you would but not actually... be able to manifest (which isn't to say I cannot *POW*)

I do feel something though and I know it because I am angree. I think you are nice in a way I cannot remember how it was like.... I have no kind of moral backbone. What I cannot convey... I must invoke. I'm being honest when I say this, imagine it and that is actually the truth... but I know this, I know I am angry.

And sometimes I just want to kill things/ people. I'm not saying it's the right thing, I just WANT to do it. I hope you might be cool with that.

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Do It Now!

GODdammit!

I've always wanted my own TV show!

It's pretty bad, you don't know how I just want to... well, sometimes its easier to KILL something/someone than to have them tending your garden, you understand? But who will "weed" it. Sadly, I cannot. Here's a poem about that:

Dammit Jim-

(I'm a doctor
not a...
doctor suess
marine
cobbler
shoe
okay, boss
boose
piano
paper
matchstick
table
cokehead
cola
cigarette
burn
bunsawn burner
bernie
ernie
ernest
mack
ernest goes to jail
ernest goes to camp
ernest goes to the movies
Walgreens
Walmart
Wally
Wall
jibber
jabber
jabberwocky,
horton,
who,
wocket,
pocket,
hat.
Andy
Candy
Charlie
Chocolate
Charleston Chew.

Christ figure?

Possibly not a lion;
probably not a giant;

spy, healer, patient-
bricklayer,
onion; psychiatrist,

burger
king
homo
homophobe
homo erectus

Lucy
hoe.

I am a doctor, Jim,
not an engineer.)


llamar, hablar conmigo pero trato solo pero haberia estudisto por el examen